Shared a photo on Facebook. 🙂

I believe you’re right. I’ve always associated some bad connotations with being drunk and the fact that I have to admit that I’ve lost control of myself is something I’d hate to admit. Maybe after a few more times, I’ll be more willing to admit it. ;p

Interesting. I didn’t realized the Facebook pictures tagged with me weren’t shared to friends of friends.

I’m not sure what preconceived notions you’re bringing along, but I get the impression that you only think you’re drunk if you have memory loss, pass out, feel terrible, etc. That’s when you’ve drank too much, or “fall-down drunk”. Which is not the same thing. If being drunk totally sucked, people wouldn’t do it.

Which brings us to the personal physical reaction to drunkenness. There are lots of different reactions. Some people get quiet, others loud. Some get angry, others happy. You can become poetic, sarcastic, caustic, sincere, musical, just about anything. Sounds like you tend to feel happy and giddy. Congrats. That’s a great drunk personality.

If you felt euphoric, and your inhibitions were lowered enough to do things you might not normally have done, and the people around you thought you were drunk, then you were drunk. It’s a socially defined thing that has very little to do with field sobriety tests or your actual BAC.

I recommend you examine your feelings around drunkenness to decide why you resist being labeled as drunk. It’s not uncommon AT ALL for drunk people to insist that they aren’t. I remember some early times drinking when I was insistent that I was not drunk, but that mostly had to do with the fact that I had always been the sort of person who insisted drinking was not for me and who valued control over my actions and emotions; the idea of being “drunk” contradicted those personal values I held.

Also, you weigh very little and it sounds like you drank quite a lot. Generally, your weight is very tied to your ability to consume alcohol, unless you drink very often and have developed a head for it. For example, I would expect that if you’ve drank 4 shots of hard liquor within 90 minutes, that you will exhibit symptoms of drunkenness. I mean, you only weight like 140 lbs, right?

Anyway, I recommend making up your mind about whether you think it’s ok for you to be drunk or not. If you don’t want to be drunk (not the same as being *A* drunk), you should really not have more than 1-2 drinks at a social function. If you’re okay with it, you should stop insisting during and afterwords that you’re not drunk. Having your friends who have probably never seen you drunk be delighted to discover that you’re drunk is A-OK. It is not the same as having your mom or significant other say “You’re drunk!” in that voice that means you’re in trouble.

Especially given your east asian decent, drinking is a big part of your cultural heritage, whether it was part of your family’s tradition when you were growing up or not. My mom still hates that I drink (even though I’m 30!), and I don’t do it around her. But I have come to realize that as an anxious, uptight, snobby control freak who has trouble showing emotion when sober, occasionally being drunk is a nice break from all that.

/rantrantrant

P.S. I wasn’t actually there, so I have no idea whether you were drunk or not. 😉